I was so excited and hopeful about voting this year knowing that I was participating in a historic event. Unfortunately I misjudged what, exactly, it was about this event that would make it historic. Now, instead of looking forward to the future, I am overcome with a sense of fear and loathing.
Fortunately (or perhaps unfortunately) I am not alone. I know that this is a time when I need to reach out even though my gut reaction is to pull a blanket over my head and cocoon. Yesterday I went to a group where everyone shared their sadness and loss. No one groused about what had happened, they just talked about how they felt and the things that helped them deal with their feelings. Although I have been neglectful about writing over the last month, this is something that helps ME. Not that I’m going to bare my total inner soul on my blog. I’ll save the worst of my emotions for less public writing, but I don’t have to stay in a state of fear and loathing. Writing is one way I can move on to something less intense, like uncomfortable, stomach clenching worry and then perhaps to a numbing sense of concern. It will be baby steps before acceptance and peace take over. A friend, who is very much into the healing arts, sent a text in which she described finding her sense of peace by being open to a world beyond expectations, even in challenging situations, and moving from fear to trust and faith. I’m not there yet, but at least I know it’s a possibility.
0 Comments
Leave a Reply. |
Leslie Masona woman in search of her post-retirement future Guess what! By subscribing, you get notices about the latest Little Old Lady with Cats posts sent to your mailbox!
* * *
The Book Naked Little Old Lady with Cats A collection of Little Old Lady with Cats blogs * * *
WHAT IS A LITTLE OLD LADY WITH CATS - REALLY?
(from an entry posted on 5/1/2015) “I definitely fit some of the characteristics of a little old lady with cats: Retired - check, Single - check, Like to knit - check, Have cats - check. . .I do not want to get stuck in my Little Old Lady persona, however. In fact, this blog is a risk taking experiment in exploring and redefining what I want my retired life to look like.” Categories
All
Archive
June 2024
|